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[22 Nov 2003|11:08pm] |
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hmmm... so im making a new journal. yessss.
this one is now retired due to an ASSHOLE who cant take a hint.
most of you are coming with me!
cmon! lets go!!!
new lj name : ballerina_fuck
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(4 toe shoes:::::that is one fucked up ballerina)
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[21 Nov 2003|01:11am] |
OK!!!!
i have the 26th off!!! do you know what that means?!??!!?
im going to see the OINGO BOINGO COVER BAND!!!!!!!!!!!!! at the GALAXY THEATRE IN SANTA ANA!!!!! FUCKKKK YESS!!!!!
anyone want to come with me?!?!?!?!?
i am so fuckin stoked!!!
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[19 Nov 2003|10:58pm] |
Last Cigarette:: two minutes ago
Last Alcoholic Drink:: glass of blush wine at the Olive Garden
Last Car Ride:: coming home from work
Last Kiss:: uhh...tonight. saying goodnight.
Last Good Cry:: cant remember
Last Library Book checked out:: 7 years ago
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:: KILL BILL
Last Book Read:: THe Perks of being a Wallflower (again)
Last Movie Rented:: Charlies Angels: Full Throttle
Last Cuss Word Uttered:: fuck
Last Beverage Drank:: Arizona Ice Tea
Last Food Consumed:: cous cous
Last Crush:: .... ha. i cant even remember
Last Phone Call:: David called to say i love you
Last TV Show Watched: Rich Girls lastnight at 10:30
Last Time Showered:: this morning
Last Shoes Worn:: my pitch black converse
Last CD Played:: Pretty Girls Make Graves
Last Item Bought:: strawberries
Last Download:: Simple Minds- dont you forget about me
Last Annoyance:: The girls on the shuttle to the parking lot. people think they are so important.
Last Disappointment:: My friend said her Dad could install my CD player in my car. but she backed out.
Last Soda Drank:: um.... cant remember
Last Thing Written:: the word "remember"
Last Key Used:: my house key
Last Word Spoken:: sure
Last Sleep:: lastnight. until this morning
Last IM:: Shayda
Last Sexual Fantasy:: on a pool table, at midnight..
Last Weird Encounter:: A 40 year old man that works at Disneyland and expects to support his family with it
Last Ice Cream Eaten:: strawberry! 4 days ago!
Last Time Amused:: talking to david today. he's so funny.
Last Time Wanting To Die:: this morning
Last Time In Love:: right now
Last Time Hugged:: um. jeremy i think?
Last Time Scolded:: all day. (if you know my mom, you understand)
Last Time Resentful::right now. my family didnt leave me any food for dinner
Last Chair Sat In:: sitting in my computer chair right now
Last Lipstick Used:: CHAPSTICK
Last Bra Worn:: my china doll black one
Last Shirt Worn:: my work shirt
Last Webpage Visited:: sewdarncute.com
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| shit on you |
[19 Nov 2003|01:47am] |
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sometimes i wonder why i actually exsist-
it doesn't really feel like i am doing anyone any good. like i am floating even. i dont have enough money to help anyone else. and there is nothing really spectacular about what i do. it really feels like i am just floating. even if i am an artist. or if i changed someone's mind. who is really going to remember it in the end? maybe thats why evil exsists. because maybe if we could do something so bad. so different. something so evil. it couldnt be ignored. maybe we gave Osama Bin Laden exactly what he wanted. a chance to be remembered in such a faceless world.
i talked to an old friend from high school tonight. i can admit it. i missed her. and i miss the girls i once ate lunch with. the girls who were way too cool for me. WAY too cool. i loved them and watched them none the less. i went to vegetarian restraunts with them and laughed with them in the back of their cars. i can honestly say i never figured out why they liked me. but if i say i can. then i wouldnt be floating.
As an aquarius... floating is less of a problem than i might think. my element is air... it really symbolizes all of my options.. like the air. they seem endless. My mode of expression is fixed. My most positive trait is my liberal attitude towards life and my negative trait is my eccentric behavior. Uranas rules my planet. hence the water bearer.
As an aquarian i like fighting for causes, dreaming and planning for the future, thinking of the past... and my dear friend.. spontaneity. so maybe im asking for all of this? maybe im sub consciously enjoying it even.
none the less... nothing will change tonight. and i dont even know if i want it to.
if you could have three wishes what would they be.
MINE:
1. to have the same emotion for a whole day
2. control over the government and its money
3. spiritual and physical balance
<3 goodnight. sorry about that.
michele
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| THEATRE |
[18 Nov 2003|12:26pm] |
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planning a tatto. working a lot.
getting rid of my friends list.
just say yes if you wanna stay. or if you read my journal and i already erased you.... sorry. just let me know! ill change it!
christmas coming up soon!
email me your mailing address if you want a christmas card from yours truly!
youreadoll@hotmail.com
<33333333 xoxoxo
michele in hiding
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[12 Nov 2003|02:24pm] |
make money. hang out. laugh a lot.
watch movies. laugh some more. love.
i dont like writing in my journal anymore. i dont really like what i write.
i dont think im going to write in here for a while.
<3 michele
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| Perks |
[12 Nov 2003|03:04am] |
i re read "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" tonight. it will always be my favorite book of all time.
i made put together these pictures. these are how i imagine all of the characters.
goodnight<3
michele
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| just maybe ill succeed. |
[12 Nov 2003|01:11am] |
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Honestly, sometimes i dont understand the way i think. There are these people.. my friends. my best friends. there are things i love and things i hate about them. but they seem to come together and fit in this little package with a pink ribbon on it tagged saying "open now". there is nothing wrong with flaws. NOTHING.
yes, natali and lauren. im talking to you. i always am. because youre all i think about.
honestly. i had a strange night. i think i know where i stand with everyone. yes. yes i do. and im not sure if i like it. i really just want him to hold me right now. keep me warm. i really want us to curl up in my bed. he will kiss my forehead... and we will laugh because we both want the pillow. he will play with my hair a little and kiss my forehead. ill cuddle into him and we'll fall asleep. and it wont matter that i dont have all of the answers. and that, is what is truly wrong. i miss him in my life. i miss him.
fuck college.
im going to the Paul Mitchell Academy. Cosmotology school for skin and makeup... it will be really interesting. i like new things.
I have an interview at Urban Outfitters. i kind of applied as a joke, but they like me. *shrugs*
if they pay more... IM SO THERE.
<33333333
im so confused tonight. i cant decide on one feeling.
i guess ill take the last 3.
goodnight
::::::::::michele
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| SHIT HEAD |
[10 Nov 2003|03:38pm] |
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my room is clean. my computer is CUSTOMIZED like whoah.
i still smell funny tho. and i havent washed my face yet today.... i have to go to work at 4:20 BAH.
my website is being worked on as well. and im going to miss Rich Girls today. because i have to work until midnight instead of 11. DAMMIT all to hell.
im off to finish cleaning!
COMMENT IF YOU LOVE ME
wooooooooo!
have a good day everyone!
<33michele
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[09 Nov 2003|01:57am] |
what a LONG day.
i bought some moisturizer and under eye concealer.
me and my sleeping habits... haha.
well, im on my way to bed. sleep tight everyone.
<333333333
michele
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[08 Nov 2003|11:20am] |
david - baby, you dont need to go shopping. you have enough stuff.
me - but im going window shopping.
david - but baby, you have enough windows.
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[08 Nov 2003|01:26am] |
"I just need to know that someone out there listens and understands and doesn't try to sleep with people even though they could have. I need to know that these people exist.
I think you of all people would understand that because I think you of all people are alive and appreciate what that means. At least I hope you do because people look to you for strength and friendship and it's that simple. At least that's what I've heard.
So this is my life. And I am both happy and sad and still trying to figure out how that could be."
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[07 Nov 2003|11:36pm] |
Effin check this out!!!!
February 4th...
famous birthdays:
Betty Friedan, Charles Lindbergh, Clyde Tombaugh, Clyde W. Tombaugh (1906), Conrad Bain, Dan Quayle, David Brenner, Denis Savard, "Big" Bill Haywood, Aika Miura, Alice Cooper, Donald W. Riegle, Robert Coover, Rosa Parks, Russel Hoban, Tadeusz Kosciuszko, Nicole Wood (Pb 4/93), Nigel Bruce, Oscar De La Hoya (1973), Lawrence Taylor, Lisa Eichorn, Louis Michel Eilshemius, Mark Hopkins, Ida Lupino (1918), Isa Lupino, Emperor Norton I of the United States, Erich Leinsdorf, Ferdinand Leger, Gumby
famous events:
Disney´s Winnie the Pooh and the Honey Tree releas, Washington/Adams ticket elected US President/Vice, USO established (1941), 1st Winter Olympics began (Lake Placid, New York;, US Bronze Star established, Interstate Commerce Act passed (1887), Apache Wars began (1861), 1st Electric Typewriter for sale, Snickers candy bar 1st for sale (1930), National Institute of Arts and Letters founded, Demountable Auto Tire patented, 1st Color Newspaper supplement published, Modern Republican Party named (1854), Fleetwood Mac´s Rumours released (1977), Thornton Wilder´s Our Town premiered on Broadway, Slavery abolished in French Colonies (1793), Rolls, Roycecommissionedits figurehead, Spirit of Ecstasy, Coca, Cola´s"CokeIs It" ad campaign launched (1982), Dade County, Florida founded (home of Miami; 1836), Charleston dancing record set (22 hrs, 30 mins; 19, American Social Hygiene Association established, Miss Peach comic strip began (1957), Karen Carpenter died of anorexia nervosa (1983), Laker Airways declared bankruptcy (1982), Superman Magnet 1st appeared on Jerry´s refrigerat, Confederate States of America formed (1861), Bee Gees´ Stayin´ Alive reached No. 1 (1978), Cafe On the Square & Brewpub founded (Texas; 1995)
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